i've come to a point in my life where i've come to an overdue conclusion

my life is crap

i know i know. some of you might say, but life is fun. yea i've tried that outlook. even believed it so much i included that in my friendster description. but i guess its all a facade.

17 years of this shit. 17 years of living in a hellhole i call home. among all their drama, they never pause, not even for one second to remember that i still exist and im feeling the sum of all their pain. it's amazing.

yes it is.

amazing that after 17 years of their "love" i havent snapped and started going around killing people. or started self abusement. well, maybe cause im the only sane person in my house. me and the hamster in the cage but i wont call that creature a human.

so im stuck. in this emo session, and for a good reason. im waiting for a few more years, when im a legalised adult and can get a proper job with salary. then its alta la vista biatches. im gone.

HA! and i thought he locked the door cos he bought a 360 for me. lol. damn was i stupid.