I'm sick.

Sick of work. Sick of school. Sick of the noisy world. Sick of my responsiblities.

I didn't know life would be THIS hard. Maybe I've really been living in my own world, not facing up to reality, and just taking a back seat in life. Well, I've just woken up to this sick reality.

Monday - Training. Ends around 7pm.
Tuesday - School ends around 6pm.
Wednesday - Training. Ends around 5pm.
Thursday - School. Ends around 5pm.
Friday - Ends around 1pm.

This schedule packed with even more stuff like extra lessons, Talent Management on Saturdays, and more training and activities over the weekend equates to: A very irritated 17 year old MJC student typing this Blog entry to vent his anger.

And I'm hating it. Hating waking up early in the morning. Hating to sit through lessons just to get a good certificate at the end of my school life. I just don't believe this is how I'm supposed to live my life. The same life that almost everyone live. Study study. And then study. I'm familiar with the chinese proverb 活 到 老, 學 到 老. But this is getting ridiculous.

This mindset of mine is probably the sole cause of all the snappy retorts that I've been throwing at people around me. Let me take this chance to apologise. Sorry. 2008, a new year, new joy and so many new chapters in my Pork Chop Mee Combination. All I need to do is just take a look at the amount of stuff I need to study and I just feeling like sleeping. Life's boring.

I'm feeling no push, no drive, no motivation to do anything. Sigh. And life after A levels and National Service? Some 7 to 7 job stuck in some cubicle at some office in the city. Something to look forward to? Definitely not.

The only solitude I find is when I stuff my earphones in my ear and turn the MP4 to the max. Music is so much more exciting.

Sick of my feelings.