Left school with pretty high spirits but left NTU, totally beaten and just too sian-ed to do anything. I'm so desperate to win now. Inter-JC is coming up in late April and early May. I guess it's time to step up the trainings. Sorry to my team for letting you guys down. Thanks to everyone who asked whether I was okay.

Today really made me feel like crap. Considering the experience I had, the performance today was lousy. Have all the years been wasted? I don't know, but I feel like I've let my ex-coach down. I'm either really past my prime, or never reached it yet. There are so many things I used to be able to do but not anymore. I really feel like kicking myself in the ass. Maybe I shall later.

If only MOE allowed JC students to participate in sparring competitions. At least on the ring, you can really be comfortable with who you are, what style you use and just focus on bringing that damned, really unfortunate person down. Mindless poomsae is taking a toll on my interest in martial arts. What happened to the day when my training was.. well so much more.

Well, anyway, after leaving NTU, we went to Jurong Point to hang out, whilst bringing the extremely long MJC school flag with us. Everyone we walked past stared at us like we were about to carry out some publicity stunt or something. It was pretty funny and a little malu at the same time. But whatever. Hehe.

I'm tired and I still need to do some stuff. So signing off.